Wednesday, May 04, 2005
thinking abt the past
Why do i keep reminiscing about the past? It's like so nostalgic and i kinda missed your presence..You were the only guy that really cared alot for me at that time.. Im so glad we've all moved on with our lives.. It's like the past one year has just been months.. We've gotten into other relationships, experienced different things and tasted life.. What's different is juz that, i dun see you anymore.. It's like youre gone physically, and i miss that...
I juz miss alot abt u..
But there's always a reason why we're here.. Im trying to make my present relationship better, be there for him, love him as much as i can, try not to piss him off as often, be myself and preserve it.. Reduce my mistakes and always be positive for him.. Wow.. We're almost together for a year, my second longest relationship.. Let me count.. 23 more days to our one year anniversary..!! :)
My love for him is greater than that of all my other exes put together.. Bcoz of this, this relationship is the hardest one i ever came across.
The only thing that worries me is whether id be able to bring him to Christ soon enuf.. His life is a mess.. Bad temper, bad history.. I wish i cud take all that pain away.. But only one person can do that and that's God.. I'll show him through me, that he can trust Him.. :)
Super shagged now.. i hate my hair!! Gonna have ws to come over to help me dye it back tml.. Gonna give it some treatment.. My poor hair's fried and dried and dead.. UrghH! :(
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